My name is Sanem. I accepted Jesus as mu Lord and Savior in 2014….
God has a plan and a glorious salvation for each and every one of us; He wants to have an intimate relationship with us and work in our lives…
I would like to share with you how God worked in my life…
I grew up in a divorced family where my parents did not know about love because of the their personal problems; my dad was an alcoholic and my mom had a temper issue. Thus, eventhough I was seeing my father I didn’t have a chance to get to know him personally. Along with these, I was emotionally rejected and neglected by my family because of my gender. I was abused physically by my mom until I was 13. In order to save myself from this situation I was praying to Allah, which was the only God I knew at the time because I was a Muslim. I was learning about the Quran and I hoped that it would heal me somehow. I wanted to run away from our home.
When I was 13, I had a dream about Jesus which I knew nothing about, that was my happiest memory in my life. After couple of months, I left home feeling completely rejected.
My lonely life without family led me to a successful life but in my heart I was broken and my heart was leading me to destruction. While in university I went to Germany. When I was there I started thinking about God on a deeper level; Quran no longer satisfied me but it left me puzzled, the answers were inadequate while I was searching for God. All in all, God seemed silent. I knew there was a mighty being that had my life on His hands but O didn’t know who He was. Was he Allah? Was he the God of Buddhism? Was He someone else? Who was he? I did not get any answers to these and I felt this rage building up inside of me, I decided to let this issue be, because I was getting lost and it seemed like God was not finding me.
Now that I was god-less I started having an admiration for the South Korean culture. I started listening to their music and watching their shows. I met a South Korean girl when I started my job as a coordinator for a Far East club at my university.
On a Sunday, I learned that she goes to a church and I asked her whether I could go with her or not, after that we attended her church for the next 3 weeks. Yes, I started going to church but I didn’t pay attention to Jesus or Christianity, all I cared about was the Koreans.
After 3 weeks, I saw a vision about Jesus late at night while I was awake…
“I’m your Lord! Return to me! I love you!” , he said. I did not quite understand but I felt this deep peace inside. Then I had another dream; I was a kid and I was crying out to God after my mom hit me, I was saying “God please save me!” and crying, Jesus was beside me and he said “I will save you” , he was trying to touch me but he couldn’t…
He came to my life twice! He came for me!
The date was the same date as the day I felt a deep anger towards God in Germany! Yes, God was not the God of other religions but he was Jesus, he prepared my heart for him and paved the way for me to enter into His peace
The next day I shared this with the people at church and learned who Jesus really was. He was slained on the cross because of his love and for me, to burden himself with my mistakes, sins an deven my pain; I accepted him as my Lord and Savior because a God who could do this could do wonders in my life…
I could never believe that someone could die for me, and I thought to myself if he chose to do what no one could do, I should follow the one whose tomb is empty! Because there was no such love, no such salvation, no such power and no such humility on Earth!
Since that day I serve him, the God who came to my life to have fellowship with me and I’m being rebuilt in Christ and he is healing my broken heart. Lord took upon Himself all my pain and gave me laughter instead.
God is not silent nor distant, He wants to take upon himself our hopelessness and pain, and he wants to give us joy and peave instead, he wants to redeem our lives and to give us rivers of life within. He wants us to know the Truth and he wants the truth to set us free…
“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast
and have no compassion on the child she has borne?
Though she may forget,
I will not forget you!
See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;
your walls are ever before me.
“..for no other god can save in this way.”